Feeling Better

WOW! am I ever feeling better and I have one to thank for that. Thank you God for helping me through that tough time. A lot of prayer and meditation sure helps when you are feeling down or missing loved ones. I still miss my husband and friends that I have lost over this last year, but I know they are watching over me and keeping me out of trouble.
Well I was able to go to Curves both Wednesday night and this morning. Tell you what going and working out makes a body feel good. I really push myself too, so I am a bit sore. What do they say? No pain, no gain. I hope that is true.  One of the things I like most about Curves is the other women and the support we give each other. Through these women I am making new friends and I even found a church to go to that is local.  I haven't been to church in a while because I moved out here to Port Orchard and the church I was going to is in Milton(about an hours drive).  I am very excited and can't wait for Sunday to get here.
It has been about 7 weeks now since I have smoked a cigarette, which is amazing since so many people I know do.  I have found that this time for me is different then all the rest the times I have stopped smoking. The smell of a cigarette or someone who has just smoked makes me ill. I don't believe I will ever smoke again, this time is it. 
Now I have a question.  Is there only one true love or should we say soul mate?  Now today after Curves I went to my coffee stand but I went inside instead of doing the drive through.  My barista and I were talking about just that.  We are alike in that we believe we can do it all on our own but know that we need the companionship, friendship, and the love of a man.  For me I lost what I thought was my only true love or soul mate.  She says that is not true, there is always another love.  There is a customer she has that lost her first husband but found another man that is just as much a friend, lover, and partner as her first love.  That gives me some hope.  I believe that we can not be happy and healthy without others in our lives.  I have many family and friends that are very supportive.  I'm not looking for a new husband at this time but some day down the road I do hope to find someone to spend life with.  Living alone is awesome but it can get lonely at times and lonely is not healthy.  I don't know about anyone else but when I get lonely I get hungry, OUCH!  Right now I call a family member or go hang out with one of my kids.  I also have many friends to call or hang out with.  I really need to find someone that likes to do all the outdoor stuff I like to do.  I love hiking, biking, camping, fishing and playing sports(mainly slow pitch softball).  My grandsons like doing these with me but an adult would be nice also. 
The weather is getting better, spring is almost here and softball starts soon.  WOOHOO! Can't wait to get out on the field, smell the fresh cut grass, the damp dirt and feeling that brisk spring breeze.  When I'm not playing ball I'm going to be out on the trails riding and enjoying the woods.  I believe I'm even going to take a couple of trips to the ocean and do some beach combing.  Life is so good.